The Garage

For our entire marriage, Jason was in charge of the garage.  He arranged things on the shelves.  He made a spot for the lawn mower.  His tools were all organized in his tool box.  It was pretty much his space.

I realized the other day that our garage is like a time capsule.  It looks almost exactly the way it did the day he died.  Part of it might be that I wasn't in the habit of doing much there.  A big part of it might be that I've avoided it.....just parking my car and walking inside the house.....trying not to notice all the little reminders of him.  I want him to be here.

I walked into the garage briefly the other day and noticed a brown sandal on one of the shelves.  Hudson's sandal....from 2.5 years ago.  Way too small for him now.  Just sitting there.  It sort of took my breath away as I thought back to the end of the summer and early fall of 2011.

I glanced at other items on the shelf and sure enough.....not much has been move or touched.  Broken sidewalk chalk.  Half empty bottles of bubbles.  Things that I've completely neglected to look at.  It's just been too hard.

In many ways you could say that my garage has been frozen in time.  And the sad part is that I still don't want to deal with it.  I still prefer to park my car inside and quickly walk in.....instead of facing the fact that he will never use the tools or cut our grass.  

I know there will come a day in the somewhat near future when I will be forced to deal with it.  We plan to sell our house after the new year (hopefully) and that will definitely require me getting in there and organizing and going through stuff.  It may sound weird but I'm dreading this so much.  It still hurts so bad.

I am not sure how I will feel later in life.....I can't imagine that there will ever be a day that I'm okay he's gone.  I find myself still longing to see him and talk to him.  Just one last hug.  Give me just a few minutes to tell you how great your boys are.  If only heaven had visiting hours......

Easter Weekend

The weather was amazing this weekend! Our church had Easter services Friday-Sunday. We went Friday night which left the rest of the weekend open. On Saturday, we went to Mountasia for putt putt and go carts. 

Shawn kept the chocolate bunny tradition going....

Sunday morning, the Easter bunny left full baskets and eggs in our yard. The whoopie cushion was favorite. 

Nothing says white trash Easter like hunting for eggs in your front yard in your pajamas! 

Hope everyone had a great Easter!

I'm Still Here

This kid has been on a "I'm-gonna-wear-a-belt-with-everything" kick lately.  And did I mention that it's waaaaay too small? I'm pretty sure he does this to annoy me.

Sweet boy still being a sweet boy.......always brings me flowers.  I'm a lucky girl.

If you haven't experienced the awesomeness of raw Apple Cider Vinegar then google it to see all the things you can do with this.  We always have it around and use it often.  Just this week, I've told 3 people about how this will take pink eye away.  Just put it on a cotton ball, rub over closed eyelid several times a day and it will be gone.  No dr visits. No meds. Love this stuff!

I ran into Walmart the other day and spotted these little wine cups.  Sweet boy and I love Shark Tank and this was one of the companies on there.  So I was intrigued and bought one.  Not the best wine ever but definitely doable.  Would be great for a picnic or pool day or something like that.  I do like the convenience of it.

Hudson's school had a band night a few nights ago.  The kids get to go into the gym and look around at all the instruments and see which ones they might want to play for next year.  6th grade is when band starts in our district. What stinks is if they don't start in 6th grade......they can't ever do it.  Hudson wasn't over the moon excited but he was willing to go and try.  I am forcing encouraging him to give it a try.  He can always quit after the first year if he doesn't like it. I would just hate for him to miss out on that and then never get a chance to jump back in. (plus, he is my kid that doesn't get excited about much of anything.  I'm pretty sure he's still convinced he will get paid to build Legos and defeat Clash of Clans)

He decided on the trombone.  He's got nice, long arms.

Something came over me this last weekend.  I decided to clean out the refrigerator.  I don't mean just toss a few things out. I mean pull everything out and wash down the shelves and drawers and all that kinda clean.  Looks awesome!  Now, we just need to get some food back in there!

This boy is definitely the spice of life. Crazy kid!!

One way to ensure a nice, quite car ride home from school?.....purchase some new books from the school book fair and have them waiting inside for them when they get inside.

Happy Hump Day!