I just love the way God works sometimes. Okay, all the time......but you know those moments when you can really see God's hand at work?
About a month after Jason died, I went to a friend's Holiday vendor show. There were lots of familiar faces there- friends from college, preschool, church, etc...... I had a girl that came up to me and started talking about how sorry she was for my loss. She told me that her best friend had died in a car accident the year before and that she had read the book Heaven (by Randy Alcorn) and she explained how great it was and how helpful this book was for her. Right there, this sweet stranger handed me the book, gave me a hug, and walked away. I was very touched.
My mom was still staying with us at that time. I took the book home and within the next several weeks, my mom started to read the book. She was going on and on about how good it was...... so I tried to read it a few times but I found that I would read a single sentence 10 times and I had NO idea what I just read. My brain ...or maybe my heart...didn't want to take in any information at that time. I was on autopilot and retaining information was not happening for me. I told her that I needed to wait. She took the book home and time went on.......and I sort of forgot about it.
A few days ago (so about 14 months later), I got a strong urge to read a book. I wanted something meaningful...something that would either inspire me or stretch my faith. I discovered the Heaven book in my nightstand (I thought my mom still had it but she had returned it a while back) and decided it was time to start. I was only a few pages in and I was already in awe of it's contents. This is some good stuff. I paused after a chapter or two and tried to think back about how I even acquired the book. Vendor show. Random girl. Who gave me the book? I thought hard about this and I honestly had no idea who gave it to me. My mind was (and sometime still is) mush and I was bothered because I wanted to thank her again for it and tell her that I was finally starting to read it. No clue. I could not remember.
At preschool today.....(I know I'm all over the place but stay with me)....... one of the girls on my team was out sick and she had a sub. I thought the sub looked familiar but I wasn't sure. At the end of the day, our two classes were in chapel together and she walked over to me and introduced herself. She told me that she had met me last year at the vendor show. And that she had given me the book. Oh my! I was so excited and I proceeded to tell her all of this and about how I was loving it! I told her about how beautiful heaven sounds and how thankful I was that she gave it to me.
She told me that when she left for the vendor show that night, she randomly grabbed this book from her house to use as a prop on her table at the show. She saw me at the show, heard about my story, noticed the heaven book on her table and just walked over and gave it to me. It wasn't preplanned. (even though I fully believe God prompted her to take it that night and give it to me)
As we talked, I discovered that this was her very first day to sub at our preschool. What are the chances? I start reading the book 2 days ago? Praying to remember who gave it to me? Coworker sick and she subs 2 doors down from me?
I know without a doubt that she and I were meant to meet today. We got a chance to talk about her friend that died and about Jason and heaven and all that good stuff. It was really cool. I love when God works that way!